ending me part 2

guess what? i did it....somehow i make it through the rain.......
somehow i did....perhaps it wasn't the end of me after all......
after i got my results today....somehow i can still breakthrough....
i am glad...somehow i am....although this time i can't win him....
perhaps i can't win him afterall...but thats alright...maybe he is ...
smarter....than me afterall...hmm...but i try to win him next year..
sigh...its finally over....i am glad...but there's still more to come next
year......i must put my best !

ending me part 1

october,21,2005.....i am standing alone at the balcony.....looking

at the sombre sky....i can feel the breeze swept across my face...

the night is so silent...so calm....but my heart pounded

against my rib...i am so worried about it......really.............

will i retained at sec 3 ? or will i barely make it to sec 4 ?

thoughts of them destroyed my brain cells....soon the wind-

whipped deluge.....i come back inside...all i can do is hope.....

hoping a miracle will happen....this exam i am too careless...

sigh...it must not be this way...lets hope something for the best...

i need to calm myself down....... .... ....

Exam quick come quick go

i really hate exam....for the past few papers i screwed all of it....it is really bad

perhaps most of the papers i will fail....maybe i am just too tired of it.....

sometimes when you do something for a long time, you will get sick of it.

sometimes you are wondering there gotta's more in life.....rather than...

doing the same old thing in your life...you wanted more in your life...that

you really wanted to do...i guess thats life.....sigh..how? how? all i wanted

is to get promoted to express sec 4.....this is it, 4 more papers to go and i am

free....but i am fear of the results....lets hope something for the best......

Changing Lanes

today....its a fun day ...my friends come to my house and swim......he is there too.....
finally...he is talking to me.....somehow....although its not much but its ok
never knew things changes so fast......things can be so unpredictable........
i have fun today with my friends and you......thank you..... ..... ....i am glad that
you talk to me.....thank you... .... ....

So Yesterday

today, school starts.....sigh...everyone look so exhausted...as usual...maybe they are still in the mood for holiday. Even myself, i am so tired too.....geez, i just couldn't believe it....school strats....so soon... today, juleen gave me a gift...which is very 'useful' . thank you juleen ! ..... anyway, i just feel like turning back time....i miss the holiday...and my mind is still in the holiday......i am still not in the mood for school......sigh its so yesterday.

Ruined 'Amplified Hardworking'

geez, can you belive it? it is so fast..... school starting soon...oh....oh.... i am so panicked. Sigh i hate it, holidays times fly so fast..... if only i can freeze time !!! sigh...i don't want to go to school so fast..... at first, i thought i wanna study hard and work extra hard x4 so that i can 'win' someone ..... however.. the whole idea is ruined, maybe i have so many homework from each different subject..... i am sick of them or perhaps i have influences such as computer games.

hmmm...... but its alright...... i guess i have to break my bones and study as hard as no one ever did before when the time has come even more near.

Sacrifice yourself for someone you like

will you sacrifice yourself for someone you like? i have asked a lot of people that whether are they willing to sacrifice themselves to someone they like. I do get the answer, some say yes and some say no. I wonder if you're reading this which one will you prefer?

Personally, i feel that i really will do anything, even it is to sacrifice myself .... to someone whom i like.....somehow thats what i think, although that person may not appriciate what you have done for him/her. Somehow i think it is very brave of that someone who is willing to sacrifice her/him for someone her/him like......even though that person may not like you...at....all.......